I'm having one of those days - you know, the ones where you are at the point that you're not sure what else you can handle but if the sky suddenly collapsed all around you you would probably just sigh and say "Well, I guess I'll go get the broom..."
One of those days where you very briefly have the opportunity to step back from a situation and you get to wonder about all the little aspects of it that just don't make sense.
One of those days where you find something out - a small thing - and it slightly skews the way that the whole situation looks.
When you find yourself questioning everything but you aren't sure if you're questioning because you have a really reason to question or because you're paranoid, have trust issues and have never met anyone who you felt completely compelled to believe with 100% of what you have.
You know?
Maybe you don't. I hope you don't.
I can't go into a lot of detail - it's a thing, a reputation thing, a not ready to reveal to the world thing.
It's a "Someone please tell me that I've been in a coma for the last week and that none of this is actually happening" type thing.
It's a "Maybe you should listen to me" type thing followed by a "See, you didn't listen and now look at the mess you're in" type thing.
Then it sits still for a while and doesn't move and you become both complacent with the fact that it isn't doing anything and also wildly concerned that it could explode at any minute.
Then it becomes a "Why are you doing this? Haven't you learned to listen?" type things.
This grows into, yet again, a "I fucking told you..." type things.
This can be followed with a "I think I saw this coming and should have known better..." ordeal and then "Why didn't I listen?"
Eventually, it's all followed by the end of the world.
Sadly, it looks like that hasn't been written into the Cosmic Calendar yet.
Whatever.
I guess I'll just go get a broom and sweep this mess up...
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